My Immortal

I’m so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
‘Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won’t leave me alone

These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase

[CHORUS:]
When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I’m bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase-

[Chorus]

I’ve tried so hard to tell myself that you’re gone
But though you’re still with me
I’ve been alone all along

[Chorus]

Ahh… memories…

My all time favorite song. I still feel the same way as I did when I heard the song for the very first time. I like the band version more than the normal (piano only) version.

Thinking Space?

What is your favorite thinking space? The place where you can think properly the most. Where you are able to come up with creative ideas for your work or uni assignments and projects?

As sad as this may sound, I think I’m able to come up with the best ideas in the… TOILET *hides*. Yes, it’s true. And I’ve noticed this so many times. When the same thing happened just now it made me want to write a post about this. I’ve been thinking and brainstorming for so long to come up with good lyrics and themes for my original song which I’m suppose to create this semester. And *tadaa* in the toilet while I was washing my face… thinking and singing different lyrics to myself, all of a sudden I got the best one. WOOT!

Also I’ve noticed that I tend to think more logically/cool mindedly or whatever in the toilet about problems. Like if I have a problem I’ll automatically start thinking about it and maybe I’ll come up with a really good solution for it. *blush*

OK you can laugh now -_- . But tell me, where/which is your creative/thinking space?

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Dreams and Losing Teeth

Someone really close to me was telling us about this dream she had. She dreamt that she was losing all her teeth. Like they just fall out… no pain or blood. (Freaky isn’t it?) So anyway she was really worried so I thought I’d do a little research since I was really curious myself.

Heres the one which I liked the most and was the most helpful.

Oftentimes, it is not the dream of the teeth falling out that creates the disturbance to the psyche but the feelings that accompany the dream. There is often a feeling of helplessness, of powerlessness–the teeth are coming out and there is nothing the dreamer can do to stop the process. Sometimes teeth fall out, sometimes they are simply missing, sometimes they crumble away. Whichever way they make their exit, the dreamer is left with not only a gap in her smile, but a hole in her heart when she awakens.

If feelings of loss of control, helplessness or powerlessness accompany your tooth loss dream, the dream is typically acting as a mirror of a situation in waking life. Dreams of tooth loss coupled with anxiety reflect a fear of change, fear of transition. Ask yourself if there is some transition that you are fearful of making.

Sometimes tooth loss dreams point to a fear of failure or embarrassment. In waking life, when people lose teeth, they often cover their mouths when talking or smiling. Is there something you want to do but are afraid of undertaking because you fear you’ll look foolish if you fail? Or is there something going on in your waking life that you feel you must hide or ‘cover up’?

Losing teeth in dreams can also point to insecurity about finances. In physical waking life, teeth are what we use to take in sustenance, to keep our bodies fit and nourished, and they are often lost when malnutrition is present. In order to take in nourishment we must be able to ’support’ ourselves. Are you worried that you will lose the ability to take care of yourself or are you already not taking care of your needs? Nourishing ourselves comes in many forms, not just our bodily needs–we must nourish our minds, spirits, and hearts as well as our bodies. Is there any aspect of your life that feels like an empty hole?

Tooth loss dreams may also symbolize a fear of abandonment, of being left behind with no recourse. Look at your relationships and see if any of them are leaving you with feelings of insecurity. Another interesting way of translating tooth loss dreams may be a fear of giving away too much information, a spilling of secrets, or a fear of being lied to.

While most of these translations sound pretty grim, keep in mind that these are all symbols of how you are feeling. They are not prophecies of doom, or omens that all of the fears you’re carrying around are on the verge of coming to pass. These dreams, like all others, are report cards from the psyche, clues to how our consciousness and unconsciousness is handling the events of our waking life. Understanding their nightly messages helps us more successfully navigate our daily activities–even the ones that scare us or fill us with feelings of dread.

Source: BellaOnline (click to read the actual article which is more detailed)

So that totally makes sense. She’s going through a rough patch in her life so of course she’s stressed out and worried. And that’s why she saw this freaky dream. Has anyone else seen these type of dreams?

Likewise… I’ve been tagged too

>_<

So now I HAVE TO update my blog :P.

Mode tagged me. So here I go…

A - Available?: For?

B-Best friend: a few…

C-Cake or Pie?: Cake

D-Drink of choice: Water?

E-Essential thing used everyday: Too many :S but if I must mention… my cellphone?

F-Favourite colour: Black & Red

G-Gummi bears or worms: neither…

H-Hometown: Male’

I-Indulgence: MUSIC!

J-January or February: January… (why do I have to choose between these two months anyway? -_-)

K-Kids and names: i want one!!!! :’( aah! freakin cute things (when they’re not whiny). O_o er names i dunno

L-Life: is a battle

M-Marriage date: 4 years from now?

N-Number of siblings: none!

O-Oranges or apples: oranges definitely ahem…

P-Phobias: fear of animals? and a lot more…

Q-Quote: “If you think you can, you can. And if you think you can’t, you’re right. “

R-Reason to smile: mom, Adhz and my friends.

S-Season: cold cold COOLD brrrr

T-Tag three people: Do I really have to?! Fine! Spark of Silence, Sinning Slave and Silverlite ( triple S!!! O_O). And also the great, the one and only MT (yes! I’ve tagged more than 3 people -_-)

U-Unknown fact about me: uh… errr… uhmm….. i believe that theres a connection between 11:11 (time) and me

V-Vegetable you do not like: ALL! -_- they’re evil!!!!

W-Worst habit: picking on tiny teeny probs :S

X-x-rays you have had: knee

Y-Your favorite food: pizza and pasta

Z-Zodiac: Sagittarius

Friends… Seasons…

It’s like one of those days when nothing goes good. All bad things follow you around like a damn curse. No matter how hard you try to stay positive and make those feelings and thoughts go away, it doesn’t work.

It hurts when old friends start avoiding/ignoring you cuz of one little incident. Makes me wonder whether the incident was really big enough to take over the friendship we had for years. If you don’t want to be my friend anymore and don’t want me to bug you all the time to ask why you’re ignoring me, then TELL ME. It’ll be easier and less hurtful then.

*phew*

Yeah I haven’t written for a while… wasn’t in the mood exactly. Happy belated V-Day, people.

P.S. Friends ARE like seasons, right? They come and they go… well, most of them. The true ones stay and I’m glad I have a few

A Walk to Remember

Wow. So I finally watched the very famous, much talked about movie, A Walk to Remember. Now I know why everyone talks about it and say its a must watch. WOW. It was like the sweeetest movie EVER. It’s officially my favorite love story ^_^. I cried so much… I cried and I cried and… I cried some more. Gosh. It was such a tearjerker. I’m still blowing my nose >.< . Everyone should definitely watch this movie atleast once.

And heres my favorite quote from the movie which got me thinking and I’m still thinking. >>

Landon: [Reading from Jamie's mother book] “Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. There are three things that last faith, hope and love, and love is the greatest of these.”

Some more quotes from the movie:

Landon: Can you help me practice my lines for the play?
Jame: Hm ok… but on one condition
Landon: What’s that?
Jamie: You have to promise you won’t fall in love with me.
Landon: That’s not a problem.
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Landon: I might kiss you.
Jamie: I might be bad at it.
Landon: That’s not possible.
[kisses her]
Landon: Jamie… I love you.
[long pause]
Landon: Now would be the time to say something.
Jamie: I told you not to fall in love with me.
————————————————————–

Landon: Do you love me?
[she nods]
Landon: Will you do something for me, then?
Jamie: [smiles] Anything.
Landon: Will you marry me?
[Jamie smiles and kisses him]
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Landon: [Reading from Jamie's mother book] “Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. There are three things that last faith, hope and love, and love is the greatest of these.”

Connected

It’s crazy how we’re all connected in ways which we don’t even know. When I add someone on Facebook I see that me and that person have so many mutual friends already and I didn’t even know they were friends with that person *faint* scarryyyyyyy.

By the way, I was just wondering… what exactly does “pakaaasss” mean? I’ve seen a lot of people err type it while chatting :S .

 It’s 1st of Feb… happy Feb everyone =]

Sitting, Wishing, Waiting

This is really weird. I’m tired and sleepy too yet I can’t sleep. Maybe not sleepy enough but surely tired. According to someone I can sleep if I really am actually sleepy *rolls eyes*. Its hot here :S I wana go out and have some fun during these last few days of my holidays. But sadly me and my bestie, we both are broke so we can’t go out *sob*.

While waiting for me to feel sleepy I’ve already put 3 piles of clothes seperately to wash .

I’ve been thinking about the past series of events that have happened in my life during ‘07 and these few days of ‘08. And wow… life just surprises you when you least expect, doesn’t it? Sometimes in good and sometimes in bad ways.

I wana eat something really yummy… dunno what though -_-

I watched The Game Plan. It was such a cute movie. I love that girl, Madison Pettis. I thought she’d be annoying cuz she is kinda annoying in “Cory in the House” the Disney channel series. Ofcourse The Rock rocked . He has insanely white teeth O.o

Weird

There are so many people on my MSN and yet I talk to only like a handful of people from there. Others… I dunno what happened along the way. It’s just so BLAH :S . I suppose we all have this problem? If you don’t then you’re lucky.

As always it’s been ages since I wrote eh? Well a lot of things happened… life’s good. I got the bestest “surprise” ever this new year ^_^ .

Hm just sitting bored at home… kind of waiting for college to start again.

Predictions

So it’s a new year YAY woot woot *eye roll*. It still feels like yesterday :S 2007… I don’t see the difference . LOL anyways I loved 2007 one of the bestest years in my life and I hope 2008 is even better with pleasant surprises ;). I just read this thing I wrote at the start of ‘07. It was a list of predictions and WOW… ALL except one has come true O.O I’m AMAZED and I’m gona write one this year too… lets see whether it comes true by the end of this year .

About the sleeplessness… I think it’s finally gone cuz today I’ve been sleeping and sleeping and… SLEEPING :S. Maybe it’s cuz I’m having a really bad cold and headache :|. I really hope the sleeplessness has gone away for good >_< it was keeeelling me.

Well…
HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!

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